and then i completed one for alex.
and then i just did not stop taking daily photos since ( random shot from my last week ) with the exception of 7 days over the last year and a bit.
i cut myself some slack.
but life is crazy these days and i worry that that dedication is going to get lost in the insanity that is our day to day...
i actually left the house twice this week without my camera.
and of course missed it desperately when i realized i did not have it.
in one case, i used my phone to capture *that* shot, that my life memories would be incomplete without ( seriously, that is how i felt ).
in the other, i drove home, grabbed snacks for the baby ( who was sick and still in his pj's from dropping of miss h at school ) and my camera baby and ran back out to take the photos i *needed*. i missed *the* moment...but came close enough ( damn sudden winter greyness) not to feel a total sense of loss.
|almost *the* moment|
i wish i knew why it was so important to me not to miss a thing. or why i think that if i do not have it on film ( yes, i know i shoot mostly digital, but i still pretend it is film ), i will not remember it.
that funny saying?
you know...photo or it didn't happen?
i live that every single minute.
which is silly, i know.
but i can't change that feeling in my gut if i am camera less.
to the narcissim part of this post.
|me, the narcissist|
i have several contacts on flickr who are restarting 365 projects.
i know there is a lot of criticism that surrounds these projects, questioning the value of taking photos of your face for a year...but i can not help but love the the level of commitment and creativity that goes along with many of these projects.
i am looking forward to watching these new projects unfold. and i mean you, joel and ali and katie and drew.
which reminded me that i actually miss the demands of the project now and again.
i am not ever going to undertake another personal 365 project.
i really can't handle that much me any more. and i think the one year got me to the place i needed to be. wherever that was.
and the second year with alex? that is actually my favourite project. ever. even more than fog. really.
because if i thought my first 365 was a place of growth and acceptance...man, did that second year teach me something;).
i would do another 365daily if i thought it could be as fulfilling as babya's first year journey was.
|314/365 - museum of modern art, paris|
i think we are heading into a year that is going to be crazy with new adventures and i am rubbing my little hands in anticipation of what awaits us. and that old familiar need to document has been creeping up on me...
i am afraid if i blink, i am going to miss something important.
so camera baby...get ready....i think you are going to be busy again.